If you were dealing with a sane person, you would not be in this mess. Your H is sick, he's insane. The alchohol and drugs are running his life right now. You have to do what you have to do to protect yourself and your kids.
You are my good friend and I have pushed you to give all to your H. You have done a fabulous job, inspiring, incredible, but now we can see that he's not mentally right. Alchoholism is a disease, and like any other it needs to be treated. It will NOT go away, he will NOT change. I have seen miracle transformations in people, in my own brother, but he made the decision to stop and seek help.
I had a feeling his drinking would hamper your growth. It's come to a head now. As hard as he tries he can't blame YOU for his misery. Stay the course. Stand strong, and let him see himself for who he really is.
I'm sorry for your loss, but I am very proud of the way you stand. You'll be fine, you'll survive and you'll thrive. That's just the woman you are I have no doubt. Stay the rock, be fierce, strong, and brave. You can try to get your H to rehab, or to AA. Look for some help in your community.
You are a beautiful woman, a patient, kind, and determined woman. Don't let his sickness pull you down into the pit. You don't have to go there. You are thinking clearly, and properly. Have confidence in your own abilities and keep on moving forward.
Regarding your kid's. Do what you can to empower them. Teach them how to pray. Pray together asking God for courage, strength and faith. If you teach your kids to pray, then they will be able to deal with the struggles that life brings them.
My prayers and thoughts are with you Ali.
Love,
COG
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