Frustrated and Saddened #2

[stewart10]

Well, she stayed out at her friends' last night. But I was okay since she told me yesterday afternoon that she was going to be staying there. Also, she did not go to any bars last night. Just went back to friends' house after work. Friday night I have a bachelor party for one of my college friends in Connecticut. So I will continue GAL this weekend. Going to play some basketball tonight.

Trying to exhibit PMA when I am around her. Hopefully she is noticing that and my GAL activities. She has been interested about my playing basketball again. She asks me often when I am going to be playing. That is definitely something that I was doing when we met/fell in love. It was a huge part of my life at that time since I was on the college team, and I have always been happiest when I was playing. So I am going to try and recapture some of those "glory days" so to speak. She has noticed that I have lost alot of weight becuase she told me today that I needed to start eating more. I have lost about 40 lbs since this all started. I am 6'5" and weighed more than I should, so I had enough to lose. I have been working out and playing ball so that has alot to do with it, rather than the fact that I am eating less than I normally did. I also think that she likes that I am playing again, because I used to just go home and wait for her to get home from work at 1:00 am. So I would typically be pretty bored and pick up the phone and call her. So instead now I am filling my evening with activities so I would not be so bored and feel the need to talk to her.

Also, she has begun contacting me more during the day lately. When she first dropped this on me, and as a result I stopped contacting her, I would go most of the day without hearing from her. I might (if I was lucky) have received a text telling me that she got to work. Now, she texts me when she gets up and frequently contacts me throughout the day.

I really feel like the next couple of weeks are going to be the difference maker for us. That and the fact that our anniversary is coming up on August 20th so it will be a tense period at least around our anniversary. But I am going to keep up the PMA. Not make a great deal about the day, but simply acknowledge it, have two gifts to follow her lead, and try and make her feel comfortable and at ease. Usually I would be planning something special for the anniversary- a trip somewhere we have never been, a lavish gift- but not this year. Actually it is kind of odd because I was thinking about booking a weekend trip to Disney (my W loves Disney and always wants to go there) for our anniversary this year and I started looking in the beginning of January right before things started to turn for us. Something told me to hold up on it, and I am glad I did.