Called W yesterday late afternoon to see what the plan was for the evening. She spoke to me like I would be there for dinner so I just said, "do you need anything?" "Yes, can you pick up xyz for me?" So got the stuff and went home to a really nice dinner.
So I get home and always have to throw in that W looks smokin and I tell her she looks great. THings going really well after dinner so I am thinking about the "strike while the iron is cold" stuff and made a tactical error on that one, not too bad, my enthusiasm got the best of me.
I literally stood there in the kitchen thinking about the following: - I want her to call me during the day, should I ask if that is what she wants? Should I ask if it is OK for me to call her? - So I did. I asked if she was Ok w/ me calling to talk during the day. She said it was "fine" with her, "if you want to call, call". - Now here is the hard part to hear. CVA - "You tend not to call so I guess I am not sure if you want to talk during the day or not" -- YES, I KNOW, NOT A GREAT LINE! W - "Umm, yeah, I will call if I want to talk or need to talk to you, OK"
So, I am not feeling great about that exchange but, I realize the mistake I made (CVA KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!). She seems to have had absolutely no issues with that exchange and still in a really good mood, so I just drop all talk and have a good evening together. So, good job CVA not pushing it any further.
Chalk it up to me wanting to hear from my W and have her ask about my day. Damn, I wish I was a ROCK and didnt have those thoughts. LEARN, LEARN, LEARN CVA. BIG STOP SIGN.
Gotta say, I was not in a good mood for about an hour and did not act like the best dad during that period while giving S7 & S5 bath time. MANAGE EMOTIONS CVA!
Taking care of kids tonight while W goes out w/ two friends to a movie and quick dinner. Wish me luck everyone!
I think I am just going to give myself advice and speak in the third person. CVA likes to..., CVA dont..., CVA you idiot...STOP, it seems to help me laugh vs just react! Who knew?
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
