Larry - the idea you need to try to absorb is that you, and you alone, are responsible for your own happiness. That is a big responsibility, but it also means you are free (which is even better). It means you are not dependent on anyone else, or anything else, to be happy. You can choose to be happy. You can make yourself happy. And that means that really, though you want to save your M and be with your W (at least now), you know now (or soon) that you need neither to be happy and to have a great life. Think about it for a while. It is absolutely true. And I know you will agree soon (if not already).
Nomo
PS - There will still be pain and sadness at times along the way. But overall, you will not only survive, but you will prosper!
M 39 W 39 M'd 10 yrs; T 14 yrs S7 D4 Bomb 5-8-05 W not working on M 1-22-07; EA 2-22 DB 4-10 S 6-11 No more C Link