Ali - I just read the last two pages. I see you struggling, working your butt off, and you say he is trying, but I saw him blaming you a LOT......displaced blame.
I'm sorry you're hurting and I'm sorry he's such an @$$. You deserve better than this and you'll see that one day.
My C told me this and it really resonated with me - I hope it does you as well:
You're a child of the King, and you deserve to be treated that way. He wants you treated like you're the King's daughter because you are.
Stay strong, do for you and the kids and don't lift a finger to help him get out.
Do you have a lawyer that you can talk to about the logistics of all of this?
Again, I'm sorry.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
