Everything's still going well w/ H. I actually feel like I'm going absolutely nuts though. I'm constantly going 90 to 'nothing. Still not too much support from H, but I've learned not to be resentful of that. Although some days I need to remind myself more than others -- especially when he is moaning about how stressed he is w/ work over there & I just want to say "big f'ing Wah." BUT, I'm continuing to be very supportive of him, getting everything done around here. Mowed the front last night. Having little one's bday party on Saturday, middle son is turning 3.
I did go out Friday night. Had a blast -- needed it! I am "reaching out" more to others -- I'm not the type that usually makes friends easily, I'm more cautious in that area, but I'm trying to reach out to people that I know pretty well and actually form some sort of bond more than just "acquaintances."
I'm just really lonely. That was the HUGE reason I was so suseptible to that other guy's advances or whatever you want to call it. Not only lonely, but w/ all that happened w/ H before he left, even though things are good now, it was still nice to get "validation" of still being "worthy, attractive" etc.
Only a month before I go visit H though so I'm starting to look forward to that A LOT since it's actually getting closer. Time is just whizzing by right now.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
