Ali, I've waited for my W to return for over a year. I have days that are tough but I have become comfortable in my day to day life. Surely the nights and the mornings are the hardest when my D is with her mom. The house is empty but I try to stay on a schedule, keep myself busy. What helped me the most was moving into a new place and sort of starting over. Nothing here reminds me of her except the emptiness at times.

I'm saying all this because I want you to know that I understand where you are. As for his behavior that's outrageous, he can be upset with you for his own reasons but threatening and not caring about doing that in front of his daughter is not right. It clearly shows that while you've made the changes he hasn't changed and that's likely why he doesn't see the changes you've made.

My advice to you for you daughter is to tell her that no matter what happens she'll always have you and that you're sure that her dad will come around and he'll be a good father to her. He's going through a tough time.

Please also try to distance your daughter from the details as much as you possibly can. We have to protect the kids from all this nonsense.

Just cut contact with your H, let him do what he wants to. Let him feel the burden of doing all this on his own shoulders. In the end we all have to live with ourselves and our decisions.

You've come this far on your own that shows you're strong and smart. We're all here to support you.


Me: 32|W: 34|D: 3yo
1st bomb: Feb 2006 (left one day, came back a week later)
2nd bomb: Aug 2006 (moved out, ILYBNILWY)
3rd bomb: Apr 2007 (filed for divorce)
4th bomb: <her finger on the launch button>