I would have played one if I could carry a rhythm, or tune, or note, or whatever it is that they require. Would also have helped if I ever learned to read sheet music I suppose. Oh well ...
Brue, They sometimes try to spin this mlc stuff positively by talking about how the LBS learns and grows in their own journey. Clearly, you have and you continue to. Maybe that is God's mysterious little gift to you. Maybe that is why this had to happen, to make you the person that you will become, and your H also.
I remember the part of the story that says the restored M will become stronger and better than the original M ever could have been. I love that part of the story. And it never said it would be easy or rushed.
Take your time and make this journey the most amazing that life can give you. We do recognize through this journey how fragile and even how short life can seem. You are blessed now that you are completely alert to all that life sends your way.
Enjoy the thrills, don't sweat the spills, love the life you live, and live life to love.