Why do these things happen Vlll

[789]

Yep, that is a weird way to be. With all friends married I am that 3rd wheel or doing stuff by myself. Eventually I will get out more, and more often, just not really sure when.

[789]

I am thinking it is just the women I have fallen in love with, I must make bad decisions. Just got of the phone with my oldest son, he informed me is mother is getting married again "4th" time, I was the 1st. Her divorce was just finalized in March I think. Maybe I just scare women off once they are married to me and scar them for life.

[*KS*Chick*]

You know that's not true.

[789]

It might not be, but man do I have to wonder.

[sadhearted]

That's not true. Her getting married for the 4th time is about her not you or any of her other exes.

[789]

I know, half in jest, half wondering. Actually I don't really care about the first wife, as long as she is happy and treats our son well it is all good.

[sadhearted]

Took a long time for my H to not care. I mean after they split he hated her not like he was wanting her back. So it took him awhile to get to the point that he just didn't care. She like your first wife had an affair and kicked him out.

[789]

It really didn't take me long, the affair part just killed that. I had hate for a couple months max then was completely over it. So easy when it all happened. That makes me wonder why this time is so difficult to let go. I have thought about it a considerable amount of time and all I can say is this time it just does not feel right, something is still there, just have to find it.

[789]

Well little one just went to bed. So the confusion of her brain continues. I checked the court house, for the last time, not going again. I cannot find a list with our names on it as her filing as she had said she did almost two weeks ago.

Now for today, she called me late morning and said since you are picking up S from school, why don't you drop of the rest of you laundry(I have to drive by her place to pick him up), that is all she called for, weird. Tonight she called out of the blue and said she was going to pick up chinese food and if we want she will get enough for all three of us if we want to come over. We go over and she acts like the world is fine. Even if I don't try to put anything into what ever she does or says, she is still acting nutty in my book.

[789]

I must be bored, it is about 1:30am. I see lots of people put up lyrics for songs that help them or give them inspiration. This is what I play first thing ever time I get into my car, and have only been doing so since our separation. The wife and I went to their concerts last year in San Diego, Sacramento, Las Vegas, Reno and Marysville(CA), she did put up with my music tastes didn't she, but I did take her to see Josh Groban "ugh". It might date me somewhat since I have loved this band since their first album. NO laughing Jazz.



Here I am, I'm in the wrong bed again
It's just a game I just can't win
There you are breathin' soft on my skin
Still you won't let me in

Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby

There you go, midnight promises again
But they're broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster every day baby
But in the morning you'll be gone
And I'm alone

Every dream I dream is like
Some Kinda rash 'n' reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don't ever come
For me you're still the same
Damned if I don't, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you

Def Leppard "Adrenalize" (1992)