I just called W just to clear up what it is that she wants me to file for against her. As I knew already it is adultery. I asked if D is what she wants & she said yes, then we can move on start to be friends...Yeah right, I bet know ones heard that line before?
Anyway my time is now, I have had enough & it's time to say quits. I cant do this anymore to myself, it still hurts & I know going ahead with the D is not a magic switch that turns the pain off. But I just can't keep this up anymore.
I told her that I am filing for adultery..I don't care anymore if it's what she says she wants now, I did, I really did hold on to that little chance that she may see some light & change her mind..Part of me still thinks thats possible, I just won't be waiting for that to happen. My main focus is that my M is truly over now & there is no turning back.
She left me for a person that she had known just a matter of weeks before she left me & only began serious talks with him 4 days prior to leaving me, I have proof of all this too. It is not something that was happening months behind my back. This has always made me feel totally rejected by her & I hope one day that she feels this & knows just how that does feel.
I'm going to shutup because this if going to turn into one huge rant..
