I have been so caught up in my own drama, that I just haven't checked on anyone. I do keep up with your thread normally.
All I can say is that for someone who wants a D so badly, your H sure is doing whatever he can to hold up the process.
Your love for and faith in your husband and in God are honestly an inspiration to me. I really admire you so much for that, and for going back to school and getting a degree and a job in a new field - you have done so many wonderful things. And you ARE so many wonderful things. You came to my aid re. trust issues due to my background, and you are really one of the only people who can understand that.
You are lovely.
Nicola
Life isn't about finding yourself; it's about creating yourself My thread: Trusting God's Plan
If ever I thought I didn't matter, you have all straightened me out on that matter. I feel so much better. Thank you nicola. I am glad that I could help. For the first time in my life, I feel as if I have finally dealt with the issues from my childhood abuse. I give all the glory to God for this. I hope that I have helped you with this s well. It is an issue that you are never over but it does get easier to handle.
I believe that at times I have sabotaged my relationships because I didn't feel worthy. All of my accomplishments lately have helped with my self-worth. It has taken me most of the last two years to get over the feeling that getting my degree destroyed my marriage. I now know that it would probably have happened even if I hadn't went back to school.
On Wednesday, I was told that I would be moving to a new building. I will now be teaching Science to three groups and teaching US History to my home group. My supervisor (principal) said that I was chosen to be one of the three co-teaching partners because I was strong in my subject and I have done such a good job in my first two years teaching. She asked me if I realized how strong I was to have dealt with all I have had to deal with in the last two years. Until someone starts listing what has gone on in my life in the last two years, I forget how much as really happened. My degree, new job, H leaving, filing for D, finding out about OW who was a friend, S32's cancer diagnosis, furnace problems twice in the middle of winter, and major vehicle issues.
I am a strong person and I will be fine without H but I also know that is not the plan God has for H and I. Thank you all so much for your kind words and loving support.
God bless you all.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Hey ANewMe, I just found out your old thread locked up. Did you get my email? Did you change your mind?
I agree with Lissie, Steelers, and the rest that you have so much to offer. I remember reading some very positive and good advice you were posting on others' threads. I know it's ahrd to be continuously strong and positive. But you are strong and do have alot to offer, including all your prayers.
It seems that your work place really appreciate you. That is just wonderful!!!
I have a hearing for the divorce in the morning. I am asking God to watch over this proceeding and bring about the outcome that pleases Him.
Please pray for my H's salvation. I will still stand for my marriage despite the outcome of this hearing but I am hoping that our divorce will not be granted tomorrow, either. But if it is I will still be married in God's eyes. I will still wear my rings and I will still pray for my H's salvation.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Hold your chin up and know that God is with you and on your side.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
