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[BeingMe]

Just occurred to me .... maybe, this is a sign that my H and I should go our separate ways. Things are being put in our paths that lead to separate lives. Or, am I just crazy. At this point, I just don't know what to do. I feel it's out of my hands, in a way. No matter whether he stays with his present job, or takes the new one, we are living separate lives, spending about 2 or 3 weekends together per month now. Sure, we talk on the phone about 3 or 4 times a day, text often, but is that enough?

My H had no choice (he felt) but to take a job in the USA, since the paper company he was working for was reshuffling, reducing staff (after a takeover) so it was likely he would've lost his job - many did lose their jobs, head office is moving, and his old job no longer exists now. In retrospect, he reacted out of fear of not having a job, whereas, maybe they would've kept him on. I don't know, but now we are stuck with his looking outside our area for good paying jobs, and all that's been available has been in the USA. If my D14 were 18 then I would not hesitate going with my H, but now I wonder if I should just end the M now, and stay here. Or, we can just separate on a possibly semi-permanent basis.

I think we are possibly fooling ourselves into thinking it may work, and I guess we can give it a try for a few months and see how it goes.

AAAAAGGGGGHHHHH!!!! Phew, feel better now.