NikkiB #18

[NikB]

Thanks for checking in Larry!! Feels more like 1 step forward, 2 back, but I hope you're right instead.

Tonight was weird... I knew (via dumbass snooping) that H was going out "for a beer" with OW after work. My mind instantly went to "bonding" but I fought it off and thought who knows.. could be to break it off, right??

I had already planned to go to the movie and bought a cute new skirt to wear. Got home, got ready, and was about to write a note and leave JUST as H got home. I told him "Hey I decided last minute to go to a movie w/some friends, sorry but I'm running late so gotta go." I KNEW he just came from hanging out with OW so it was good it was so quick.

We saw Hairspray - FUN FUN FUN movie. It's not some kinda great film by any means but very up beat and I just loved it. Perfect timing. Met 4 girls and 1 guy from this meetup group, all of whom were very cool. This particular meetup really attracts my same age range so I'm excited for that. Plan to join them for happy hour on Thursday too... but it'll be after my MC session so see how that goes, first.

H was acting funny when I got home... asked to see the mortgage bill so he could see "how much we owe vs. house price." yuuuuck. But he also seemed really put off by me going out tonight so I wonder if some of it was game-playing (it felt like it with his tone, and for once in a few months I didn't take the bait so I was proud of that). He kept asking me if it was "all girls" that went. It was 4 girls, 1 guy.. I finally told him that then went online to show the "reviews" on meetup.com. One girl had written about the guy that he was "Hot and comfortable enough in his sexuality to go see Hairpsray."

Really like these girls, and hope I feel good enough to go out w/them on Thursday too.

As for the rest... I'm so confused, but I'm kinda in a "whatever" phase, right now. (which is better than where I was)