If you truly believe she wants to grow old with you then let that be your Northern Star if she can agree, maybe not now but hopefully eventually. You need to let go though. Don't lose hope. Maybe she needs to find her way back to you.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."