The Plank is out of my eyes, but too late for WAW?

[stewart10]

Heimlich:

First off, Happy Anniversary. Next year's will be better. (Mine is coming up August 20th so I will be where you are soon)

A little bummed today. It's our 12th wedding anniversary. 12 years ago, we were leaving our reception to go to the Lafitte Guest House on Bourbon Street for a few nights before our honeymoon in Belize. I'm just remembering how happy and in love we were and, well, I just don't have the words to describe how it feels now. Disillusioned. Melancholy. Disappointed, both with her and me.

I know what you mean. We were married 2 years ago. Kind of shows you how quickly things can/will change. I am reminded of something in the books that Michelle says. If the feelings were there to begin with and since the wedding have changed, that means they can change back. Just keep doing what you are doing.

Man, how the hell did we get here? How do you let yourself forget to treat the most important person in your life like the most important person in your life?

I don't know what to say. Just that it happens and we are left with trying to pick up the pieces that our actions have created. But we are on the right track.

Starting to get a little tense for Wed. Things were easy between us when she left, not sure how they're going to be when she returns. At any rate, looking forward to seeing my girls. They occassionally bug the hell out of me (and I really do feel like I missed out on a lot of very cool boy toys. Barbies and My Little Pony. Pure evil.), but I do enjoy their company.

Things will work out fine when they get back as long as you keep a PMA and Act as If. And it will be good for you to see your D's. I can imagine how much you must have missed them.

Just miss her a lot. In the past, I've always looked forward to seeing her again, even if we had just been apart for a day. I still do, but, as you all know, it's not quite the same, is it?

I know exactly what you are saying. I still look forward to seeing her even when it has only been a couple of hours. Yes, things are different, because she has made it clear that she no longer misses me when we are apart. That she doesn't have that same aniticipation that she used to have when we were apart for awhile and about to see eachother. That does not mean that you feeling excited is wrong. Use the excitement to improve your PMA. Get excited to see her, but try not to get overexcited. Does that make sense?

Did any of those positive things the week before she left mean anything? Are we still on the fast track to D.

I am sure the positives meant something. Just remember that often the positives are followed by a brief pullback. Whether or not you are on the fast track, you can't really control. Just try and not do anything to advance the D. And use the time that is created to keep up the GAL, 180's and PMA. It seems like there are some positives in your situation. Concentrate on that. Baby steps.