Like we never loved before 4

[bright 2 morro]

RCR,
Thank you for reminding me of all of that. I was doing so well before and now I can not seem to pick up the pieces. I have a lot on my mind and it seems like everyday something else bad happens. I just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be alright and to let me cry on them for a little while. I want someone to tell me that they love me again.

I am feeling so alone. I go to bed at night and cry myself to sleep lately because of the lonliness. I am really tired of feeling like I have to walk on egg shells.

My H is on a business trip all of this week. I was able to get in an extra session with my C. I have one tomorrow and one on Thursday. I am hoping that she can kick me in the a&& and get me out of this funk that I am in.

My H just called and he told me that he wants me to just hang on. That he does care about me but wants to fix it right, he wants the marriage to be a great marriage when we are through and it if it works out. He then told me that the fact that I have stood by him has not gone un-noticed and that he really does appreciate it. And the fact that I have been willing to forgive him for everything means alot to him. He told me that he does not want to move out of the house. That we just need to take some time to work through this.

Maybe, things will be ok in the end. I just need help during these really bad times in my head. Hopefully the double sessions this week will be just what the doctor ordered.

Thank you for the great words RCR. They help when I am down. Maybe I can start to pick things up again.

Mimi