Called him, not coming home.

[yawmom]

I just called H - been a month and a half since he told me he loved someone esle. He's a OTR driver, she worked at a stop as a secretary (< so he says). Well, it use to be 4-5 calls a day and ends with I love you, but that happened in a long time.
I had no clue this would happen, nor his buddies. I thought it was MLC, but not sure now.

So tired of being depressed and missing him, I called and told him to make a choice- either come home or not. He said he'd come and get his stuff. His choice is made then eh?
I've loved him for 25 yrs, and he can just leave like that huh? I've read the books, but it's hard to work on a marriage when the H isnt' around.

She's a druggie (4yr record), and has been in jail for 2 months. She got a calling card and has been calling him. They have that in "common" he broke away from a drug addiction close to 20yrs ago--I said we have kids, home and marriage in common!!

Anyway--I truly love him, I want my marriage to work (told him that too) but just can't be in limbo for her to get out of jail and him take off with her. I deserve more than that. I am better than some drugged up whore. <<sorry!

This is the hardest decision I've ever made, but I'll follow the book and see if he decides to wake up, if not then I guess I've got to somehow go on. I've prayed and prayed, and tried to keep busy--no matter what my mind wanders back to him. So dang hard.
MLC is one thing, but an affair with that choice is a slap in the face.
I will do TLR and see if anything changes. I have hope but I actually feel better knowing where I stand. Almost a relief, since I was in limbo, his quote is "I didn't way you had to wait for me" << I had told him I was trying to be patient and understanding but with his OW calling him and him not being in touch with me is hurtful. Now I know where I stand and I can move on, I'd love for him to "wake up" but he'll have to learn the hard way. Damn shame.