Thanks so much for the advice. Easier said than done not to let the mind race and think of all things from why to how and everything in between. It is a crusher to say the least, been up since 1.44 am this morning, did a work out of super human proportions yesterday, something I should not have been able to do. I guess the adrenalin and body is running on lots of extra fumes, literally and figurativley.

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Married 6 years, no kids, but have been trying. That is straining as well