There and Back

[SallyM]

thanks, astimegoeson. I need to get all of that thru my thick skull. not easy sometimes.

not the best morning. still in a mood and when I took h's car to my therapy appt today, I snooped. yep, I snooped. its been nearly a month since I last did that, and it always bites me in the ass, so not sure why I did it. maybe I'm trying to break from him. who knows. what I do know is that, courtesy of his gps, I now have her home address, and the address of her beach house. I was sorely tempted to copy her house keys (on his keyring, that I take when I take his car), head on over there, and decorate her house. my friend and I decided we should cover it from top to bottom in photocopies of old love letters/cards that H has given me over the years.

ahhh, would be so satisfying.

but I'll show restraint. I didn't copy the keys. I won't go there even without the keys. but oh the fantasy.

I had an okay therapy session...very sad, but okay. I love my therapist, she is so awesome, I know she is going to be a big help in the next few months. I went to the gym after, had a decent w/o. was upbeat when H got home with the kids. nothing more I can do...my post above still stands. I need to let go, for real. I need to realize he has changed, and not for the better, at least not where I am concerned. I need to. its going to be hard, but hopefully I'll come out the other side a stronger, happier person.