It was really never about being love or not...my H and I were not seeing eye to eye about so many things it was just becoming so overwhelming to me. When I would come home from work (12 hours in a hospital...13 by the time all was said and done plus a 45 min commute one way) he would be in the garage drinking...and I would say hi, he would say hi...then we would just go about our ways...me shower and bed (by this time we were sleeping in seperate beds) he would stay in the garage drinking until he was either too tired or drunk...He also was a slob so after work, I would clean up after him....I was just tired...and there absolutely ZILCH communication...hello each morning, and each evening....that was it. So to answer your question...I couldn't live with our R in the shape that it was in. We had tried counseling but he dropped out...and then he went to a party and ended up getting a ride home from another women (ironically the girl he is dating now) I also found some texts back and forth between them towards the end of the things....it just plain got ugly!! So after time apart it's just like I woke up, and I slowly think he might be waking up...just wish he would hurry it up a little ya know!!! LIMBO LAND sucks!! Thank god for you guys...
As for the feelings...they just naturally started to come back, it was like a whirlwind. One night we text back and forth, then another night, then another night, and then another. Finally I said lets have drinks and talk...that is when I asked if he really wanted the D...he almost broke down in tears in the bar...and now here we are...total role reversal. I have no clue where all of this is going to lead. He is still seeing the OW...still talks to me....I truly believe she is just a pacifer!!! he hates absolutly hates to be alone...and also moves at the pace of a turtle. So we shall see where the road leads!!
As for you my friend...I hope those tears were like mine...tears of seeing you having a good time and her thinking what the hell have I done. I will say a prayer in hopes that is what they were.
H-32 Me-29 T-10years M-4yr (10/04) Me- WAW 1/07 I filed for D 2/07 D put on hold 5/07 H re-files for D 9/08 WOW! trying MC 10/08
"Work like you don't need the money, dance like nobody is watching, love like you've never been hurt!"
