Well, this morning, I called H at work to say hi, and he asked what I was doing. I told him I was watching a show on marriage, and it was run by a couple who, like us had been married for awhile, had run into some trouble in their marriage, and learned how to work it out.
He asked me what was on my mind, calling him while I was watching that show. I told him that we were on my mind all the time, well, I said not 100% of the time, but a lot of the time, and I said you asked me what I was watching, so that is why I described the show. I told him I was learning to trust him that he was telling me the truth, that he wasn't doing anything wrong, and we were both telling the truth about what we wanted from each other. When I told him I was learning to trust him that he was telling me the truth, I said right? And he said yes, he was. so, he is either a really accomplished liar, or he is telling the truth, and maybe the receipt for the gift items dated the 25th wasn't for ow.
Something weird, this year, I have been introduced to more people that he knows than ever before, some he has worked with for years, and they all seem to like me. It seems like everywhere we go, we run into someone he knows, and he readily introduces me, with no hesitation. So, maybe he will watch himself, if all these people are beginning to know who his wife is, and that she isn't the bit*h he told me other people have said I am. I have been nice to all of them, even suggesting that we go out one night with a couple who was vacationing near where we were. something that surprised my H very much, because he told me he thought I was anti-social, which I wasn't, I was just very self-conscious, still am, but the big weight loss has helped alot.
Well, I got off the phone and cried a little, and then got on here to write out my thoughts. Now, I am looking around to see all that I need to get to work on in this house.
