Hi everyone. I haven't heard from any of you in a day or so and perhaps I got a little spoiled to the great encouragement I was receiving. Anyway, I have had a bad time of it this week and need your prayers. When the temptation to contact the OM gets to be about more than I can take, I start reading all the posts I can until I get so sleepy I can barely keep my eyes open. I have noticed there are several WAW and I have replied to some hoping we could encourage each other. Anyway, what I am asking is this...are there sucess stories from WAW that have been in situations like mine? Not that you friends that have responded have not helped me....you have greatly! It's just that I knew you were probably more familiar with the forums and archieves and would know if any are posted or if you recall anything that you could relate to us WAW that would be helpful.
Most of you are so patient with us....those of you who are LBS. I have read one or two where the pain was still so raw that they could not be too kindly toward the WAS that was seeking advice, and I can understand why. We must be sound so selfish when we post our stitch. However, some of us truly do want to do what we know is right and fair to our H and our families and MR. But, we do have very low moments where we feel so discouraged and are fighting the temptations. The LBS, if I have understood what I've read, have the "loving" feelings toward their S, but we who are WAS don't have those "feelings". I don't mean to sound curel when I make that statement. God knows how I want to have those feelings again. It seems like everything would be so much easier if I did have the feelings! Every day is a struggle for me just to hang in the M and try to keep from going insane. I have no desire for my H....don't want him to touch me....can barely stay under the same roof at times. I know...that sound harsh, but just trying to explain the things we go through. I don't know how it is for some, but for me...just to clean the house and cook, etc. is about more than I can force myself to do because my "heart" isn't in it. I can almost hear some wanting to preach me a sermon at this point...so, I'll stop there.
Those of you who are so good to give us that encouragement, even if you may think we are selfish or underserving at times....thank you....for our family's sake if nothing else.
If anyone has time to reply to me today....the sooner the better...I really could use somebody.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
