Ya know what, just writing that I'm feeling down has made a huge difference. I think that I hold everything in for so long - I never let anyone see what I'm feeling, always try to be everyone's rock; always try to be the tough one - I never allow myself to wallow in self-pity. But, I feel hurt, feel pain and just because I don't let anyone see it, doesn't mean I'm not that way on the inside.
I know I need to focus and get my crap together. What will be, will be. And I guess I should either come here and post or post on my blog just to get the stuff out. I just get kind of sick of thinking & writing about it all the time, though. Sometimes keeping it fresh doesn't seem to help me get past it. I don't know. (I'm shrugging, lol.)
