the truth of the matter is, he doesn't want me any more. and it makes me feel like a complete loser that he doesn't...that there is something wrong with me. but I'm not a loser, I know I have my foibles, but really, there is NOTHING I have done that is so bad that I deserve how he has treated me. nothing. and nothing I can do will change who he has become. I need to let go. I need to. not pretend to, I need to fully do it. S5 was right last night...daddy doesn't live here anymore.
I initially questioned myself and did find some behaviors that I needed to address, but nothing that would justify her walking out on me for some butt ugly, mentally challenged, and emotionally disturbed OM. It's just such a step down for her in quality that it makes no sense. It's not just me that realizes this, but a wink and nod behind her back from her girlfriends reinforces my perception of the situation.
No Morgan, it's not you, it's not me, and it's not us who are on this board. It is definitely them. We come here to try and salvage our marriage because we believe in it and are willing to work through the problems. We are trying to understand what went wrong and what part we played in it. They on the other hand, run from it without mercy or explanation in some cases. We can't change them or their new found view of us. We can only try to soften the landing for ourselves and realize that there is nothing wrong with us.
Last edited by Astimegoeson; 07/31/0702:34 PM.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
