Tonight we turned a major corner. She has agreed to work on things. Some background will help.
Well yesterday she said she wanted to come to the house today to do some work. She has avoided it for a while so that was a nice surprise. I got a call before lunch and she asked if I wanted to go to lunch. Meet up with her and s, had a good lunch. Then she confessed that she has no food and out of money and needed a meal. Hmm, made me feel real good, jk.
Well I come home from work and she is there. Tells me that she needs to talk, and has sat her all day not working at all. She said she was afraid of having another meltdown. I started with the imago, and she stated that she thinks she is making a mistake but she just can’t come home either. This started at 5pm and it just ended around 10. A lot was said, but it kept going back to her choice. So I broke a lot of DB rules and asked her some tough questions.
Well the end result of a lot of talking was that she wants to come home, but she said she was scared. I told her I was scared. But that through work and time we could make this happen.
I can’t really even explain right now, I feel so up but I’m scared to death. She is in a bad place, told me she wants this more than anything, but she wants it as it was before I quit trying. The scary part is she is mentally in a real bad place. She has talked about checking in somewhere, and I told her I would support her. So no matter what, I can’t worry about me at all, I need to make sure she is ok. I don’t want her to harm herself, but her talk hasn’t been there for a while, but you never know.
Well I guess the big journey begins. These are the first steps and hopefully after some major db’ing I can say I busted this thing.
