One Day at a Time II

[789]

Every thing will probably calm down after the services, just be around when and if he needs you. Keep yourself happy at the same time, how ever you manage that.

[sadhearted]

Yeah and sadly will probably also not hear much from my H anymore. I've definitely been there for him today. And he actually thanked me for doing it all. This is not about us but a part of me hopes that one day he'll look back and realize I WAS there when he needed me most. Course even if he does doesn't mean he'll be open to coming back.

Wow happy huh. Better take my puzzle with me. Since we'll be in a hotel room together for a couple days.

[789]

Wow happy huh. Better take my puzzle with me. Since we'll be in a hotel room together for a couple days.

Make sure the kids have their own hotel room.

[sadhearted]

Kids aren't going with us. Just the two of us. Good, bad who knows. The youngest wouldn't do well at a funeral and the oldest I just don't know if he should go. My H isn't sure either so I'm leaning toward not taking him. He knows who she was but hadn't seen her in a couple years. I'm also afraid if we take him his grandparents who also haven't seen him for a couple years will just be all over him. I know that sounds like an odd thing to say but my H stopped talking to his parents and doesn't want them having the same influence over ours that they've had over my SS. And maybe he should remember her as the nice old lady and not the one laying in a casket.

[789]

I realize it is going for a funeral, but it could also be some good alone time together. Don't push or be needy, just take that time to enjoy each others company.

[sadhearted]

Yeah that's why I'm not wanting to take anything he does or says or let's me do as anything other then what it is. We're both sad and I'm just glad it's me he's turned too.

Don't want to do anything but be there for him.

Booked a room with double beds. Just may be odd to be that close and yet not be. Oh and it's like a 6 hour car ride. Lots of alone time.

[789]

The reason is bad, but I am still jealous.

[sadhearted]

Yeah very bad reason to be alone.

Might want to hold of on your jealousy til we get back. Might just be weird and no talking or anything. Though it's kinda nice knowing he doesn't want to deal with his family during this time but he's letting me be around. Not to mention very sad.

I was looking at flower arrangements and I sent him some links for him to look at. He was at work so he said i trust you just pick one. Now I know we're talking flowers but last week he's telling me he can't trust me. Completely different situations I know. Shouldn't even compare the two. I guess I'm okay to pick out flowers but not to have his heart.

[789]

Just go with the flow, what else can you do. He does sound very confused, but also trying times with a death in the family so you cannot read to much into it.

[sadhearted]

He is confused. Yes I figure right now his focus is on his grandma so I'm not reading into anything. I really am happy to just be there. It's nice to feel like I'm helping him out.