I guess part of me feels like an idiot holding out hope that we will reunite one day. My biggest problem is that I have this deep feeling that she will eventually "wake up" and realize we do have what it takes to make it a wonderful and healthy marriage. I just want to be around if and when that happens. Then again I could just be the idiot thinking that way.
We all feel that way at times and second guess ourselves. I think you have a reasonable concern about waking up and being around. You are digging deeper into your own character which is all part of the growing process we have to go through.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
