Anyone who wants to hunt for my stuff would have to go back a ways - I think my posts began with "How do I go on from here". Liss and I started together along with AH and some others who haven't been around in a while in Feb and March of 06.
things have changed a lot since those days. For me I have found the journey to be well worth the trip. I have grown in ways I have always needed to grow. I have faced many fears head on and have learned to deal with them.
if anyone thinks that life is rosy with H back I will say it is not. But it is comfortable and we have been laughing a lot. There is no closure here. H and I come from 2 different angles on this whole deal. He is still in the process of "finding" himself in his life and what he will be doing. He has new beginnings going on in his music and this is all new for us. He is a man who has been a workaholic forever..........and now he is a guitaraholic. He no longer is earning money.
for most this would make them crazy.
for me - it is part of the journey that God is guiding me thru. I'm ok with what is going on because there is growth in other areas of my own life that i'm watching take shape. this would not be for everyone. we're in our mid-50's now...and we're starting over. it is an interesting challenge.
but...conquering the challenge will be awesome and i honestly believe it is doable.
every day is a miracle and i have loved life more since this whole separation began than my whole life which was basically a negative view of me.
i am convinced that we need to grab on to a positive outlook regardless to what is actually happening. we can look at all things 2 ways. negatively or positively. if you've been going along the whole time viewing the negative...then i urge you to try the other strategy. it will make a big difference in how you handle your lot in life. since you have to deal with the sh.. anyway - why not look at it with a brighter view - it'll only help you to feel better.
we are, many times, the cause of our own suffering. i know that was always the case with me. just my view of things helped to make things worse than they needed to be.
it is a gift to have this time to work on you - take the gift and learn to soar.
brue
I'm alive, I'm happy - why shouldn't I tell the world I've got my head screwed back on just fine. Life is good for the Brue!
