Thanks Grace and IMP for the responses. I did go to the pic-nic and it actually was not too bad. She wasn't there and I was glad of that but I was embarrassed because of the situation. I am really angry at my H today. I think because we did go yesterday and I thought " All these people know what happened and they are probably wondering why I am taking this and still with him". Well anyway, thats the kind of thoughts I have been having today and all the coping mechanisms have gone out the window and I have laid into him all day. My nerves are so raw I just cannot get control of my emotions. I think at this point I would be just as satisfied to get a divorce. I am a mess today and him working with her doesn't help. Of course, she probably isn't the wreck I am and I am sure she is beginning to look more appealing as the days go by to him. I just don't know if I even care at this point. Thanks for listening to a woman who is ready for the looney bin. Love, Violets
