Hey, J, thanks for coming by, I wondered where you were, and I sent you an email.
The receipt I found was dated the day after we came back from vacation. So, that's what made me wonder if he was rushing out to buy ow some stuff for their "day", because he, we were out of town on their "day". What does it mean when they seem to be thinking of wanting the M, and yet they do stuff like this? Could he still be torn between me and ow?? I mean he said ow went back to her H. Was he most likely lying about that? I snooped again and he has gotten rid of the receipt now, and maybe he suspected I knew something. It was for some inexpensive stuff, because I know he didn't have very much money left. I keep hoping he will let it slip that it was stuff for his Mama, but nothing yet.
He worked extra jobs yesterday morning, and last night, and will again tonight, he says to buy himself some toy for his gun. But, I am thinking that junior needs school stuff, so H may be being a little selfish.
As for vacation, H threw his arm around my shoulder when we were walking down the road and on the beach, and he seemed to like that I had lost enough weight since last vacation to get into a swimsuit that was three sizes smaller. I have a lot of more body work to do, but I think keeping the weight off is making me feel better.
I had always asked H to sleep in the other room on vacation, and at home because of his extremely loud snoring, because I could never get any sleep, but since all this, he and I sleep together, and on this vacation as well as the one in the fall, we slept together in the same bed, and H was really glad about that, but he did bring up AGAIN, about all the times he was asked to sleep elsewhere. I just told him it would never happen again. I can't keep apologizing over and over and over ad nauseaum, because it just doesn't seem to get through to him, anyway. He really seems to enjoy his victimization, even though it doesn't happen anymore.
He did tell me the other night when we had that talk, that sometimes when he says something mean to me, it makes him feel bad. So, is that good??
So, any help and advice would help now, and I will say this dang piecing is tough. So, help me not to screw this up.
