Still stuck in Limbo Land

[MariS]

Mary,

So glad 2 read U r keeping busy & there seems 2 b positives in your thread. I find it so amazing how U & I seem 2 b mirroring each other. HUGS!!!!

Journaling...

Since I last logged in, no more communication from OW trying 2 contact me & I don't mention her to WAH-MLCer. WAH-MLCer did attend a high school reunion w/me & shared my B-Day w/me.

I also read the proper care & feeding of H book & it has enlightened me. Plan 2 purchase Getting Back Together 2nd edition, How 2 Reconcile w/Your Partner & Make It Last.

I still have my own anger/resentment issues w/WAH-MLCer & still want 2 lash out 4 everything that he has done, but am doing better @ keeping my mouth shut, praying, being thankful 4 the positives & digging in harder each day.

Sometimes I think I am seeing the light @ the end of the tunnel, but am afraid to hope. Especially since WAH-MLCer will not say anything about us, still won't kiss me when having sex & hasn't opened up in any shape or form. I still see him battling w/his own demons & issues, but @ least, his relationshop w/child has greatly improved since child was born.

My evaluation deadline I set came & went. My choice/decision is to remain fighting for my M & family. We have come so far, that I am not willing to dump it all away. Have set another evaluation deadline & will see what happens then.

Until then, I will remain here in the limbo land, DB'ing, As'ifing and GAL'ing.

Thoughts, suggestions or advice????