I just reread my post and what a downer I am. On good days, I know that I have loved my H and that I am so worth loving but the frustration of this journey are many. I struggle financially while I pray that my D will not ever be final. If it gets settled I would be better financially but I would be D from the one true love of my life. So herein lies my dilemma. I think that having time off from work always brings out the sad part and the weddings I attended made it worse. I have a life and it is pretty full and happy for the most part. I don't have money to go out and do things but I do have plenty to keep me busy at home and I have church and get involved with things there.
I truly believe that sometime it is too depressing to read about someone doing this for more than 3 years with no real progress toward reconciliation and still standing.
The reason that I don't post often is that I really feel I don't have much to offer. I can give advice but I have not progress or reason for anyone to think that it is good advice.
Take care all and I will be back when I feel a little more positive.
God bless you all.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
