Quick recap. Married 11 years, together 13. Two kids D10 and S7. I was controlling and not supportive. She was repressed and typical walk away wife.
She filed a year ago and it was not a pleasant time. We tried counseling for 1 year prior to her filing. She was done. She closed her heart (her words).
I was fair in the divorce, but she is not going to live the lifestyle she wants.
She had a couple emotional affairs and potentially one physical. Will never know. Before the mediation ink was dry, she was in love with a millionaire could wine her and dine her.
In the mean time, I GAL'ed. I would see her and tell her that she can come home any time. I have dated, just not real into it. I have met a wonderful woman who is sweet and wants to love me, but I am having a hard time letting her.
My ex says she still does not trust me. We have had several dinners together and we have done birthdays and team parties. She told the kids that she broke up with OM. She told me that they are slowing down. She says her heart belongs to OM.
I have suggested going out to see if we can rekindled something and she says no. She said her heart is blocked off to her.
Does anybody have any advice? Being with her sucks. It is full of anxiety because I want to shake her up and bring her back to reality. She is in la-la land. She is going to lose the kids (they want to live with me). She can't pay her bills. She hoping the millionaire bails her out.
I am just tired of running into a brick wall. I have a real hard time just being friends. My pastor says it is my way to Christ by serving her now.
I need some encouragement- Am I crazy?
JSD
Hillcountry
[color:"red"]I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it."
