Journaling: so one of our boundaries was if we are out at night to be home by midnight in case D wakes up (which happens) looking for one of us. Saturday night I wake-up at 1:50 am and realize H is not there. I am more worried than anything cause I didn't think he'd break a boundary (why do I continue to have any fatih in him?). I call his cell and he says he is almost home. I go back to bed - pissed although for the wrong reasons. He comes home and wants to talk. Says he and the OW have decided not to be intimate anymore for reasons he does not want to explain. But it has nothing to do with me. I ask him if he is OK as sex is very important to him. he says it was my decision. They are still going to be friends and hang out but more as friends. Sunday am H is in depressed mood and I know he called her (or I strongly believe). Later that day we talk a bit and his career and future are bothering him. I so wish I could help him feel better with this. I know he will make it through and I believe in him so much but he does not believe me when I say these things - any suggestions on a different tactic that shows I understand and am there for him with these feelings - it is so hard on him to have such an uncertain future?
Anyway later that night we talk a bit more and again he says the decision not to have that type of relationship is because of him - nothing to do with me, he doesn't need the added hassle, needs to focus on the lawsuit, figuring out we are going to do, his future, my future, our DD etc. Then says it is because things she did - hmm maybe not all roses and kisses in other relationship - boy do I hope so! They are still going to be "friends" though and see each other etc. I find this all so odd and if it has nothing to do with me, why did he tell me? DD and I leave for vacation later this week so he'll have a week by himself. I hope he misses me a bit. I know he will miss DD. Why can't he see that we should at least try to make this work? Just try, yes it will be hard and no there are no guarantees but how can I get his heart to open just a crack to let us try? God I wish I had a crystal ball.
