When he got back to his place he logged on to the computer and talked to me the rest of the night. He is in so much pain. I said something about loosing someone is never easy and he said neither is realizing your running out of people to loose. Meaning he has cut off the rest of his family, his oldest doesn't want anything to do with him, and he no longer has me and our kids because he left. He went to work today. They are making arrangements for her funeral which will be out of town since this isn't where she's from. And last night he sounded like he didn't want to go mainly because of his family. I told him not to make the decision based on them to make it for him. He wouldn't have to spend every waking minute with them. Oh and not to decide last night. That he needed to just take the night and grieve how he needed to and just be.
Hold myself together. Easier said then done. I fell apart I don't know how many times yesterday. Today is just starting so we'll see...
W: 33 H: 37 SS: 14 S: 7 S: 3 married 08/09/97 Seperated 11/02 05/07 H moved back 8/26/07
