One Day at a Time II

[sadhearted]

Well about an hour ago my H's grandma died. He was actually here when he got the news. We had gone to see her earlier they had her on pain medicine so she didn't know. This is just so incrediable sad.

My H won't let it out in front of anyone even me so he left to go to his apartment. As he was leaving my S3 just started crying his eyes out. He wanted daddy he didn't want him to leave. This is the first time he's done this. Then my S7 started crying because gran is dead. I felt like calling my H and telling him he needed to turn around and come back. I didn't. And at the moment we are all as ok as we can be.

Through out the day my H let me rub his back, arm, head. And after we got the news I asked him if I could have a hug. He told me I wasn't allowed to cry on him. So I got a hug and held in my tears. He even squeazed me while hugging me. He is so crushed. I'm glad he let me be there a little bit for him. That's all I want is to just BE there.

This is sooo sad.