Thanks Kat, I did feel better after I let it out and after I prayed, WE (my W and I) have a lot of people praying for us, and my niece who will be a fish at Texas A&M ( I am so proud of her, I'm a HUGE Aggie wannabe) prayed for me over the phone Friday and I was going to ask her to include my W in her prayer, but lo and behold if she didn't do it anyway without me asking her, she is really a sweet girl and she is a child of divorce and has first hand knowledge of what it does to children, she is still going to therapy 10 years after my brothers D.
I think that my W may be showing pursuing behaviour (like asking ME if she could have a hug, calling me) since I told her I was letting her go, she (I hope) may be subconsciously seeking reassurance that I still love her.
Me:38 W: 35 Married 11 years 2 daughters ages 7 and 3 D filed by her [url]http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1143353&page=2#Post1143353[/url]