a couple of prouds today. first, h called and I was in a genuinely good mood, and sounded like it. I did not ask him his plans for the day, I did not hint around to find out what he was up to or anything. instead, I was upbeat and excited about my plans for the day (friends are coming with their kids this afternoon and staying for dinner, should be fun). I continue to pretend that their weekend together (assuming my gut was right about it) was frought with arguments and her neediness. yes, her hair extensions even fell out, and oh, that zit I've imagined on her chin, its getting bigger. hey, its my imagination, I can do what I want, right?
I did call his mom today, to genuinely see how she was feeling(she's been very ill), and I did NOT hint around anything about H or his plans/how he's doing/etc. I did not dump on her about how I am doing. true progress, that.
lastly, and completely unrelated, I made a lemon cake using my new sandcastle bundt pan, and the thing actually released and came out perfectly!!!! wooo-hooo!!!
off to make sangria. hoping for a good, distraction filled day.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
