thanks for the posts, can't sleep still on cloud 9. not to worry, i may go through the coaster ride tomorrow, but when i'm on stage i db like there is now tomorrow.
i just can't get over a couple of statements, that she can't wait to see her boys, and that she really appreciates that i'm alright with her going out with friends. she said it such, like she was acknowledging some type of permission. but all i said was that she deserves to have a good time.
i shouldn't read too much into it, because every thing changes after a night of sleep, but who knows were she will stand tomorrow. but i have to say, if she sees it as me giving her something and she is grateful, well then she still sees our m as something valid, if she thinks i need to give my blessing. it is major controlling, and she is talking to the old me, but i can't help but take that as a great sign.
i just hope she realizes that i don't wan't what we had, with permission's from each other. i want her to commit, and i give my all, a partnership, friendship, parents and lovers.
you know the other night when i pushed, can't remember how i got to this point, but i told her i didn't want the r we had, i told her it was dead, that i wanted this new one that we had begun, i wanted a new life with her. maybe it hit home even though i shouldn't have said it.
