man, sorry to hear your down. she has to get this out of her, don't let it kill you. keep asking the right questions, like your doing. is this moving me towards my goal, think before you speak and act. i know the drink is a downfall, oh i know. be careful with that.
i can't but help get excited that she is going with you on the trip. that is awesome. make it fun and have fun.
as for what she is doing, you don't know and honestly you don't want to know. worst case, well you know, but ask yourself is that a deal breaker. are you ready to throw in the towel. best case, she is venting and trying to let off some steam. don't worry about it until she brings it to the table.
