you should feel good, irish! that is amazing...good for you! he is probably eating his heart out at how good you look. and you are right, the love from my children is amazing, and the hugs and kisses, too. not the same, of course, but something to cherish all the same.
when H was still in the house, it was sooo much harder, because here was this man that was MINE just a short time ago, to do with pretty much as I liked, at least in bed. I had sex whenever, it was almost always available, and as such, I didn't think nearly as much about it. now I think waaaay too much about it.
I have to say, after the bomb when we did have sex (and we did) I could NOT think about him with ow. not at all. I have from time to time imagined it, but have learned to block it out, because trust me, it does me no good on any level. in makes me sick, actually. its hard to block, but I do it and I just stop. thankfully I am secure in myself in this area...I know he likes me in bed and loves how I am sexually. obviously its not enough to change anything...there is so much more going on here. even H said it. its not about sex.
of course, if its not about sex, then why am I the only one in our M not getting any?
sigh.
okay, off to scrub a floor.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
