the problem for me is that I really am losing hope that my M will be saved. I am. I don't see how it can. which means, unless I want to be celibate for life (oh god no, please, I've been punished enough), I will need to move on sooner or later in that department. no, the time isn't right right now, but in the future I certainly hope there will be acceptable options for me.

will be curious if the H fantasies will fade in time...either when I am(ahem)on my own, or whether I do eventually find someone else. hopefully they will. or, if by some bizarre change of events, H and I do reconcile, if they continue with him.

Last edited by morgan; 07/28/07 10:18 PM.
M-41
H-38
M-10 years, T-14 years
Bomb-PA 3/19/07
Separated-6/7/07
Piecing/h back home 5/08
S-6
S-4
D-4

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"

-Mary Anne Radmacher