Well today has been pretty down. I'm incrediable sad about his grandma. I haven't heard from H today so I don't know how he's holding up. Can you be numb and sad at the same time? Seems to be the best way to describe how I'm feeling. I wish there was something I could do for my H. Someway to comfort him. But how can I if he won't let me? Guess I can't. We don't really know how much longer she has. If she keeps getting fluid built up then my guess is not too long. I'm debating whether I want to go see her tomorrow. I mean we pretty much said our goodbyes on Tuesday when we went to the hospital. Still may go see her. Might see if my H would be interested in going with me or if he's all ready been or what. This sucks.
He said as much last night. Said life sucks and he just needs to figure out how to get used to it.
What a sad miserable day.
W: 33 H: 37 SS: 14 S: 7 S: 3 married 08/09/97 Seperated 11/02 05/07 H moved back 8/26/07
