This is so tough for me, too. One of the reasons I got a puppy back in April--just to cuddle and touch (NO, nothing sexual!!)
But I still dream of him...even after discovering the PA. Dreams turn to nightmares turn back to dreams. I miss his touch so much. He is the only one I have ever held, kissed, been with...I look around me, now, and actually see men for the first time (I just never really noticed that much). And I have not been attracted to any of them. Even remotely.
Drakkar is his cologne. And the email I found from CW was all about how good he smelled, how good he felt...
OK, now I'm just pissing myself off. Time to take a cold shower.
