I think I want to give up. HELP!!!

[NeedSomePatience]

Thanks Amy, Ohio and Husband for the responses.

I will take your advice and not wait up. Cannot close door because I sleep on the couch. Maybe I'll move into the garage or something. Yes Ohio, I need to GAL big time. Have been doing lots of things with kids, becoming a better father, but I do have to find things to do for myself. I am actually going skydiving next month (something I have always wanted to do but W always said it was too dangerous). She was sort of shocked to hear I am actually going to go through with it.

As for her talking to OM in front of me, she goes to the backyard now to talk on phone. I have let her know that it hurts for me to see her talking all "lovey dovey" to him on the phone, but there is nothing I can do about it, just don't do it in front of me. She says I am welcome to be there if she is on the phone because she doesn't talk all "lovey dovey", they mostly talk about school related stuff. I told her that it doesn't matter what they are talking about, I still do not want to be there when she is talking to her boyfriend (she hates when I refer to OM as boyfriend, but I have told her that is the reality)

Going to a party at my brother's tonight, gonna have some fun. She might show up later to the party (after studying with OM), but let's see how she feels when I don't make her the center of attention when she shows up. I am going to the party to have fun, not hang out with her (but I will be pleasant to her if she does come up to me).