the thing that is really hitting me right now is my feelings. i know that i want her to be here, but i'm also getting these feelings of detachment. as in, i know in my heart if she showed at the door right now wanting to come back, i would be all about it. but i feel, crap can't really explain it. just not as commited i guess and i think my indiffrence is starting to show through. not in a bad way, i actually think she is struggling with the fact that how can he be so calm about all of this. i don't know, just feels odd.
Atlas, I know how you feel and what you are trying to say. I sometimes wonder how we would go on if things got better. I mean how do we start over? I guess it would be slow process...like we are falling in love all over again.
