About how many days should I allow myself to feel a little sorry for myself/sad and obsess over this girl like she was the greatest woman ever when she obviously wasn't?
I guess there are things I could be doing to get my mind off of all of this but I keep postponing them. I'm just not in the mood for any of them. Part of the problem is that its so hot that I don't feel like doing anything that could be distracting (my home air conditioning hasn't worked all Summer - I just have problem after problem here. I wish I could run away like she did in some ways but I'm not anywhere near that irresponsible. She has a broken AC too but now shes in a nice cool apartment. Almost sounds smart to me).
Today was my moms birthday and she wanted to go out to dinner so I took her to a Mexican restaurant. It was just horrible. I felt sick. I didn't want to be in public. My eyes kept tearing up. I felt like the conversations I was having between my mom and I were so poor compared to the conversations Jennifer and I used to have. My stomach churned and I had no appetite and only ended up eating like 10% of my food. I ended up being a mood killer (sorry mom) and a little annoyed at the whole experience and couldn't wait to get back home even if it was insanely hot.
