Nikki, glad you popped back over. It seems our paths are still running parallel. I can certainly understand the conflicted feelings you are having. For me I just don't think w is going to be willing to give up OM, unless I move out or hunker down for a heck of a lot longer. If you don't want to, don't. Keep striving for loving detachment and let H sort out his crazy emotions. He said a lot of good stuff, but actions need to speak for him, as you well know. Good luck with all, I have been keeping you in my prayers.