still building the missing half

[bambam1970]

I always felt like I was pushing him to try to get attention. I have never had another long term relationship and wonder if there are really men out there that would want to spend that much time with their partner. I am just trying to picture a new life in the future and what the possibilities could be. I am also trying to get a non-idealistic view of what my marriage was like. I thought I had a happy marriage but maybe I just had a happy life.

Yes, exactly! I am in the same situation. H had this incredible need for attention and he typically put that first. When I needed it, he didn't have any left. Even when my father died. H was upset that he wasn't asked to sing at the service and that the quote my brothers and sisters and I chose for the headstone was not one he suggested. We spent a lot of time designing the stone and when I showed H the sketch of it he said "I don't really like it."

Funny how I start to remember things from the marriage that I'd pushed down b/c I couldn't let them surface or I would not have survived daily w/H. He is a good man, just not what I need.

Half, I want to be just like you when I grow up! And since my 1st appt w/attorney is Monday, I hope to grow quickly this weekend!

Hugs to you! And I LOOOOOVE Build-A-Bear!