He came home and I was crying my eyes out while I did the dishes. He asked what was wrong and I said that soon, for the first time in 12 years I won't be looking forward to him coming home. For the first time in 12 years I'll be in the bed by myself without knowing that he'll be home soon. I said "This might be really exciting for you, {he kinda shook his head that it wasn't} but for me, it's VERY sad." And then I said "I'm sorry for being upset and dumping it on you" and he said "No, no. I need to hear this sort of thing."
I am having a hell of a time acting "as if". I am scared out of my mind.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
